red bull ang lakas!

*credits to anitokid for the picture (dat's Sam and me :D)

i didn't have any sleep since yesterday when i drank that red bull-vodka mix of a drink. it is around noon this time while i'm writing this post and i still don't feel like sleeping. rili! i am already insomniac as it is that is why i am abstaining from drinking coffee. i knew that i'll regret drinking that red bull mix, knowing that it would have a stronger effect than coffee, still I did. damn my adventurous spirit! argh!!! now i feel like a zombie.

i wish i knew of this drink back when i was trading, could've stayed up 24/5 (5 days, not 7 coz we dnt trade on weekends). oh well! nothing i can do to bring back those hellish days hehe....

being a god parent...

came Sunday, i was on my way to my very first ceremony as a god parent. my first god child's name is earl eugene who's the son of a close friend from my previous job.

i was looking forward to the ceremony coz i was wondering what it would be like, or feel like, then i knew...

...i felt stupid haha! well...it's not that i am proud of it or anything coz i really felt stupid at that time. there i was feeling all solemn coz i am about to become responsible for someone else's faith and so confident because i am assured in my own faith then suddenly, the priest goes like, "what are the 7 Sacraments?" So i smiled to myself, enumerated them in my mind and lo and behold! i was only able to name 4:

baptism
confirmation
marriage
anointing of the sick

i mean how stupid was that? i grew up in a catholic school and raised by catholic parents yet i forgot the other sacraments which, by the way, i took for granted because they are regularly taken or received on Sundays! ugh! nweiz...here's a link for those of you honest enough to admit that you forgot them as well haha! 7 Sacraments. going back, of course the priest's question led to the discussion of my responsibilities to my god child and i've learned that i will not only have to rear his faith but mine as well. i know that being able to enumerate the 7 Sacraments doesn't make up faith but its a start...:)

mom's 50th birthday

i woke up last Saturday, February 17th, to the 50th birthday of my mom. i won't talk about the celebration but i want to discuss some thoughts that i had and maybe, you guys have felt or wondered about your parents as well. these questions are those i've been wondering about but never really asked.

*at 50, i know there are some things that she still would like to do, what are those things? (i am hoping that these are things that i can do for her)

* she has been living for 50 years and she spent half her life taking care of me and my siblings, does she have any regrets after all these years? (mind you, i was observing my mom through out that day, and i can tell she's thinking too, only am not too sure what she's thinking about)

*after being married for more than 20 years, does she still love my father? (my dad's 50th birthday will be on April, so my mom celebrated her's first. i will ask my father the same questions when his turn comes and some more...)

*did she keep special feelings for any man aside from my father before and/or during the marriage? (disclaimer: i have no proof of infidelities on both my parent's accounts, i'm really just curious! :D)

*did she ever feel that we loved her enough (worse, did she ever feel that we did not love her enough)?

*what specifically was she expecting in a daughter that she found in me (or did not find me)?

*was i worth the sacrifice of her career?

these are questions that i was afraid to ask last Saturday basically because i am still preparing myself for her possible responses. nevertheless, i know that i'll eventually gather enough courage and ask her probably... tonight. i'm just hoping that she would not feel as if she's on "The Buzz" hehe...

beginnings

this marks the beginning of a new path for me after a disastrous employment experience. i hope that experience wud be the last in a long and satisfying career i plan to have.

i already met my new co-workers and they are a bunch of interesting people with varied personalities. i regret to leave my old friends, now former officemates, behind although i know 2 myself that i won't forget dem.

now i plan to forge ahead and remain optimistic with new people, new things, and new experiences coming my way. wish me luck guys! :D